what's the letter L?

Life if a continous journey. You meet new people from different places. They will have the chance to get to know you. They will care for you. But sometimes,it is hard to trust them. it is hard to know if they are saying the truth or they are lying just to flatter you. This is exactly what I feel right now. I had the chance to meet this guy. I admit he is good looking. The first time I saw his pictures I easily got attracted to him. I know his a somebody from the world where he belongs. He is someone that girls would chase. By chance, I had his number. I had the chance to get to know him. I'm so happy that his friend gave me his number. He usually tect and call me. I thought we are heading to another level of relationship. As time goes by, the L word that he felt towards me is not what i expected. It is the other way around. he just spent time with me because of he wanted me to share a bed with him. I feel so sad to hear it from him. I did not expect that it is his real intention from me. I thought he wanted friendship that is why he continously communicate with me. I felt disappointed about it. It's not that I;m expecting that he will learn to love me. He should tell me his intention in the beginning of our friendship. Right now, i care for him. I am controlling myself not to fall for him. If I will love him it will bring complications to our lives. I'm sure it will make heart torn into pieces. This is life. I have to admit. I like him but i have to let go of him to save myself.

back for a holiday post

it's been a while since I posted my last entry. I felt sad because i wasn't able to post the things that i experienced for the few weeks that past. I'm still working in a call center. i was able to adopt a little in my environment. i have to admit, I'm still struggling to meet the metrics in my scorecard. Everyday, before taking calls I always feel nervous. Wierd calls give stress to my work. I have my tools to resolve the issue of the customer but sometimes the tools are not enough. This work is not an easy job. Another thing, I wasn't able to have my social life same as before. I have to meet my friends in a limited time. Sometimes, I missed the gimiks ang get togethers because of my schedule.

anyway, I'm so happy because my family is complete this holiday. My brother had his christmas break. He spend the holidays with us. Im so thankful to spend time with my brother again.