confusion

this is the right place to share my emotion for the past few days. I can't understand myself. I can't tell anybody about it. The truth is I am confuse right now. I am confuse on what career path should I pursue. I am a nurse by heart but for some reasons I am working as a call center in one of the biggest BPO company in the country. I love being a nurse and taking care of the patients but I have to stay in the call center industry.



I am in this field for financial reasons. I can buy what i want, i can even have my share to pay our bills and I can save money for my future at the same time. My working environment is not a problem. I enjoy the company of my team mates and my co-trainees. I can say that I am satisfied with my job right now. I am now adjusted to the stressful life and shifting schedules that a call center agent has. I even think of being promoted and earn higher than what I am earning right now. I know I can do it if I exert extra effort but I choose not to to do it because I know I will learn to love this industry and totally forgot that I worked hard to be a license nurse.



last week, I talked to my nursing friends. We talked about the experiences and happenings in their lives as a nurse in the hospital. Working in the hospital is one of my plans back in college. I also planned to become a reviewer for nursing students. I already worked for a hospital. I loved what I did even the salary is not enough for my needs. I miss giving medications. I miss being the Ma'am of the nursing students in the our station.



"It is hard to decide and leave the place where I am right now but I know I need to make a step sooner. I need to move and go back to my first love which is the medical field"